October 1845-July 1846

The Collected Letters, Volume 20


JWC TO HELEN WELSH ; 29 June 1846; DOI: 10.1215/lt-18460629-JWC-HW-01; CL 20: 216-217


Monday [29 June 1846]

Dearest Helen

I have news for you that will give you a considerable of a surprise—I mean to be in Liverpool, I by myself I—in a few days and am not going straight to Maryland Street— My dear Uncle will think this the most unnatural thing that was ever heard tell of—but you must tell him that I am unhappily in no condition at this moment to consider what were naturalest but only what is likeliest to set up my health a little which has got to a pass that begins to look rather alarming even to myself who am pretty well used to ailments—a green place—quiet—and a great deal of solitude is what my soul longs for more than any positive pleasures such as being with my own people— This I can have at Seaforth and great kindness along with it so to Seaforth I must go in the first instance— Should I stop at Maryland Street I should arrive so ill that I should neither give nor get any pleasure— Somebody would have to be put out of his bed to make room for me—and I should have then—setting aside the pleasure of seeing you all—just the same sort of thing I am obliged to fly away from here— Streets and dust and burning sunshine, and people coming and going— No dearest Cousin I must get up my health a little if possible and then I will get the good of going to you Meanwhile I shall be able to see you often tho' I do not stay to sleep— Mrs Paulet is the best natured of women and will drive me to you whenever I am up to driving— I think of going on Saturday—but am at the mercy of a bad cold which has come on me since the day before yesterday in addition to my general unwellness— My breast is very sore and I have a great deal of headach and cough—and it would be a risk travelling even in warm weather while I am so feverish—but I expect the feverishness will be gone before saturday and I shall not stay for the cough—which will probably be best helped by change of air Carlyle is still making up his mind about his movements—and will like better to be left to follow his own devices—

I have not heard from Jeannie for an age— Is anything gone wrong with Andrew?1— I always fancy him in the case when she is long silent

Ever your / affectionate Cousin

J Carlyle