April 1849-December 1849

The Collected Letters, Volume 24


JWC TO THOMAS CARLYLE; 26 July 1849; DOI: 10.1215/lt-18490726-JWC-TC-01; CL 24: 148


Haddington / George Inn Thursday morning [26 July 1849]

My dear Dear—I wrote you a long—very long letter last night, at midnight, from this same place— But this morning instead of posting it in the postoffice I have torn it up. You may fancy what sort of a letter, “all about feelings” (as Lady A would say) an excitable character like me would write in such circumstance, after a long railway journey, and a three hours-pilgrimage all up and down and accross and round about Haddington— And you can also understand how after some hours of sleep, I should have reacted against my last nights self, and thought all that steam best gathered back into the Vale of Silence

I have now only time to write the briefest of notes—but a blessing from here I must send you—to no other mortal would I or indeed could I write from this place at this moment—but it comes natural to me to direct a letter to you here and that is still something is it not?—

I will give you all my news so soon as I have slept a night at Auchtertool— I expect Walter and Jeanie will meet me at the station in Edinr, where I shall be at a quarter after twelve—

I am not too much tired—my journey has been made as easy for me as possible— From Rawdon to Morpeth, on Tuesday; William Edward most kindly accompanying me there, and seeing me off next day— “I looked so horribly helpless he said, that he could not reconcile it to his conscience to leave me a chance at losing myself”—

I was wandering about till after dark last night and out again this morning at six—but I must leave all particulars till a more leisure moment— and till my heart is a little calmer than just at present I am so glad I came here on this incognito principle— It is the only way in which I could have got any good of the dear old place—God bless it! how changed it is and how changed am I!—but enough just now

Ever your affectionate

Jeanie Welsh 1