The Collected Letters, Volume 28


JWC TO KATE STERLING ; 27 September 1853; DOI: 10.1215/lt-18530927-JWC-KS-01; CL 28: 278-279


5 Cheyne Row / Tuesday night [27? September 1853]

My Darling

I am in a “peck of troubles” but I must not delay thanking you for your letter—it takes a deal of affection to make one stand being found fault with so well as that! I am glad of your affection and hope it may last my life out.

I am again at Cheyne Row “superintending the works” and remoddling my establishment of one woman— Mr C exploded Fanny some fortnight ago—and I was vexed with him at the time; for my natural cowardice inclined me to puddle on with Irish cabinism and “a cloud of lies” rather than front the horrors of change and of a strange face in the house—but now that The Creature has fairly gone—even tho' I am in a state of interregnum I am glad— I have the old cook who was with me last year1 till I am suited—and I am going after a character tomorrow— Another besides the one whose char[ac]ter2 I am going to take presented herself today, a woman with “a face to split a pitcher,[”] and who came seemingly to hire me not to be hired by me— After surveying me—rather contemptuously I must own—she proceeded to ask me a string of questions which I answered to see how it would end— “Did I keep no more servants than one”? “Had I much company”? Was I in the habit of often changing my servants”? to this last question I answered; “as often as they seemed to require changing and on the whole I shouldnt suit her, I was afraid.” I shall be detained here in the midst of disorder and noise and dirt for some days yet—with old ceilings being pulled down and new stairs being put up the house is about as uninhabitable as it was this time last year— What preparation for living—when one is near the end of ones life! At Addiscombe it is all so still and so lovely and Lady A's housemaid is so perfect in her doings—but there I do not feel free—“there is always a something” as the Lady said God bless you

affectionately yours /

Jane Carlyle