January-September 1856

The Collected Letters, Volume 31


JWC TO ELLEN TWISLETON ; 13 June 1856; DOI: 10.1215/lt-18560613-JWC-ETW-01; CL 31: 108-109


5 Cheyne Row / Friday [13 June 1856]

Darling! That last was the most provoking miss of all! We had just returned from Addiscombe, where we had been since the previous Saturday, and when you came I was close at hand; at Geraldine Jewsbury's in the next street! I had run over to give her some commissions before retiring myself from public life, into my fourposted red bed! I had come home with such a faceache and such a sorethroat! instead of those charming results always promised one from “change of air.”

All yesterday I was too ill to write you even a bit of a note—While at Addiscombe I dreamed about you one night—a wretched dream—that you were sitting as white as a sheet, slowly weeping, and refusing to be comforted; because Mr Twistleton and you were to be “sparated”!!1for political reasons; I partly believed; but I could not at all make it out, and knew only that you were miserable and he was misereable, and Miss Dwight2 and I were crying over you! On waking I determined I should go and see you the day after my return. But as I have said I had to spend it in bed—besides you named Tuesday. If I am up to anything I have to lunch at a Mrs Daubeny's3 at Fulham on that day. That is to say I must be there at 3 or soon after— It is some nonsensical forenoon “At Home” But I will go to you first about one if you can receive me so early—

Affectionately yours

Jane Carlyle

You will find Addiscombe beautiful. Ask Mr Venables to show you Sir F Pollocks Child!4