JBW TO THOMAS CARLYLE; 30 July 1825; DOI: 10.1215/lt-18250730-JBW-TC-01; CL 3:360-361.
JBW TO THOMAS CARLYLE
Templand / Saturday [30 July 1825]
Mr Carlyle do you mean to kill me? is it just of you to keep me so long in doubt? Your displeasure I have merited, perhaps your scorn, but surely not this terrible silence. Write then for Heaven's Sake! and kindly if you can, for I am wretched beyond all expression. Had I but strength I would come to you this very day, and when I held you in my arms and you saw my tears you would forget every thing but the love I bear you. Oh I do love you my own Friend. above the whole earth—no human being was ever half so dear to me—none none—and will you break my heart? Alas I thought when we parted that some evil destiny was hanging over us. but the loss of your affection was the very last thing I feared and have I indeed lost it? Speak tell me. It is inhuman to leave me in this suspense. Be your answer what it may I will love and venerate you to the last. You may be no longer mine but I will be yours in life in death through all eternity Jane B Welsh