July-December 1858

The Collected Letters, Volume 34


JWC TO TC ; 22 July 1858; DOI: 10.1215/lt-18580722-JWC-TC-02; CL 34: 68


5 Cheyne Row Thursday [22 July 1858]

Oh my Dear! I could cry with vexation! But there isn't a minute to spare! It is close on post time and if I dont make haste you wont get even this sign of life! Surely I am the most unfortunate of women! or the most infatuated! I wrote you a long letter this morning1 three sheets closely covered! and ten to one it never “meets your eye.”2 I put it, and one to Miss Donaldson, in my pocket, meaning to post them in Piccadilly after I had been to Chapman & Halls,3 and when I felt for them in my pocket only one was there—not yours—Miss Donaldson's. I went back to Chapmans to look on the floor; no trace of it! I must have pulled it out with my purse when I paid the Omnibus man. And now will it reach you or no? If anybody of common civility picked it up He or She would put it in the post office! But—persons of civility are rarer than one might expect!

If it do reach you, you will learn what ailed me yesterday and all about every thing—if it don't—wait in good humour since it is not the will that was wanting

Yours in haste /

Jane Carlyle

I will not write till I hear whether the letter has come to hand—as I dont know where to begin—