January-October 1859

The Collected Letters, Volume 35


TC TO [JOHN A. CARLYLE] ; 7 October 1859; DOI: 10.1215/lt-18591007-TC-JAC-01; CL 35: 225


Chelsea, Friday 7 Octr, 1859

Was there ever the like heard of or seen! I wrote punctually to you on Monday,1 and have been priding myself all this while on fidelity in keeping promises;—and here, this morning, turning over my Blotbook, I find the Note lying; has never gone farther! Fie on it, and alackaday! There never was the like done by me before:—but it is withal a lively sign of the confusion and the feckless conditn I am in ever since returning: (t. o.) let us send it off now, at least, and have done. Oimè, Oimè [Alas, alas]!—

I have gone out riding every day (Horse in fair conditn, and extremely neat); I have been clearing off rubbish; I have seen nobody, not even Neuberg: I intend beginning on Monday, if weak human-nature permit,—Heaven pity me, and grant strength for this last tough struggle of my poor existence!—— Jane is doing not so far amiss. It has been for most part quite oppressively hot; no rain at all, tho’ yesterday a good bluster of wind (with “stour,” i.e. dust) from the East.

Blessings on you all!— / T. C.— (11 a.m.)